I was sitting at my desk doing some pretty mundane tasks, when it occurred to me that I was utterly in a state of frustration. As most would describe any need for release, mine comes from the extreme need to release w o r d s.
I can't stand not writing... and yet, my life is not structured in a way conducive to the luxury of it. Maddening.
I think writing comes about much in the way a photographer needs to capture a moment, a light, an expression, a feeling...
My need to write comes on rather suddenly and hits me-- the joy and pain of it all-- like the need to push out life. I want the rush and the frenzy of fingers flying on a keyboard. I want to climb to the serenity and seclusion of my mind and frantically push pen to paper. I want to reach down and pull out the deepest and most abrasive or most caressing thoughts until they take shape into something semi-solid, then perfect in an untouchable way.
Writing for me isn't about acclaim, it is primal.
It is essential to my very being.
In writing I feel the most alive. It is a chase that never ends . . .
I've heard that some writers need to remove themselves for months at a time to seclusion, usually at a beautiful place, the keys, Africa, the swiss alps, in order to write clearly and purposefully. do you think you are like this on some level, just trapped by circumstance?
ReplyDeleteare you writing any books, or journals, or anything for publication?
Do you create? Do you remove yourself for months at a time? In seclusion? I suppose I would.. I would purposefully go and seclude myself deep in nature somewhere quite primitive and beautiful. I do this quite often from my own bed, where I frequently write. My mind provides vast escapes full of detail and solitude.
DeleteI was reading an article recently about mental illness and the cultural difference from which it is viewed.
" In the shamanic view, mental illness signals “the birth of a healer," Meanig mental disorders are spiritual emergencies, spiritual crises, and need to be regarded as such to aid the healer in being born.
In the Dagara tradition, the community helps the person reconcile the energies of both worlds–”the world of the spirit that he or she is merged with, and the village and community.” That person is able then to serve as a bridge between the worlds and help the living with information and healing they need."
More than anything I think I am in dire need of a Shaman.. I'd like to go on a shamanic journey.